I(36 M)have been with my wife(30 F) for 10 years almost. I saw the writing on the wall right from the get go almost. Neither of were virgins before we met(boy i found out she wasnt). We decided to wait for sex for a few months and court each other since we got out of shity relationships and didnt want to base it just on sex since were both super high libido people. When we finally had sex 5 months in we were so hot into it we didnt use any protection. Low and behold she was pregnant and I thought to myself... well I love this girl and she loves me lets do this. Things seam great love having our daughter. In 2015 we decide to get married because we want to spend our lives together. We move into our new place and here we are... christmas 2015 she brings a coworker she fucked years earlier over. Im like yeah okay no big deal hes engaged... she procedes to loose her mind snd takes off oddly. This sends me some weird vibes im not liking. She obviously still has feelings i bring it up she brushes it off as just awkward for her. March of the following year our daughter gets extremely ill. Ends up in hospital for weeks and has to relearn how to do basic tasks.

2 years later (2017)she keeps begging me to have another baby with her. Our daughter is doing okay though we didnt realize the long term effects of her illness. So we have a baby boy. Amazing we had him at home something I will forever remember.

After my son was born she sunk into depression. And since then she hasnt been the same. Telling me I havent been there for her and the family... ive always worked providing(thats the problem) for us since the start. Okay I do more I am making sure to be a better person. She starts hanging out with her young coworkers who are like 19 years old. I remember once she was like he'll buy me an apple watch why wont you.... uhh excuse me...

God why didnt I leave then.

Nothing past that point 2019 i quit my job ive had since we were married and making good coin now. I join the gym work out 5 days a week with my friend... she snaps at me i fuck it off. Im looking good making good money content. Even get compliments from coworkers friends strangers.

Fall 2019 my wife gets into a car crash while I am at work doesnt call me doesnt text me about it.

She called her parents.

I found out after work i was furious. Shes like you wouldnt have done anything anyways.

Okay ill talk to you in the morning

goes to the gym

Shes furious id work out before coming home.

Money is an issue now we need a new car... okay we end up financing one.

Covid hits

We all go nuts she works while i stay home with the kids since i am laid off...(here we go)

I figured hey well finally have some family time together...

Everyday she comes home is tired and sick of people... this continued for months.

"You never would have had kids with me im sure you would have with someone else"

Im like wtf

Mid August she comes home... you have such an ugly penis my god its got too much skin its discusting... its small and just looks awful.

I told her we could have ended things years ago if she wasnt happy with me. She says no just all penis' are gross.

Uhh okay thanks your vaginas not the same for me either but i thought we cared for each other and had a relationship.

Our sex life dwindles i ask why she tells me to go watch porn i get more eatten up.

I ask her what the fuck is going on are you having an affair? She laughs "go ahead look through my phone i dont have time for that."

Looks through phone flirty texts from coworkers infact past friends ex... hmmm

Last week hits.

I told her "so i guess i was your mistake you have always longed for someone else... since day one. I took your entired youth away and onviously you wish you were with someone better." She threw her rings at me with a propt

"I hate you."

Didnt talk for 3 days.

I come home in the morning after work. She kisses me we have sex asks me to cum in her. Which okay i havebt in ages great make up sex. We end up having sex for 3 days straight we end up in a role play senario. She starts calling ne daddy. I am into it. Rough sex all weekend. Awesome. I tell her this is what we need in our relationship it will fix us. She aggrees. Were both into bdsm sex and whatnot... awesome.

Last night she confesses to me shes into cuckold porn and asks what i think about bringing it into our marriage.

I didbt denean her for telling me its a kink of hers but i said if shes at the point to bringing in otherw i am out... which i mean i am already out as is she.

I am just destroyed I have been married to someone i didnt know for 10 years now. Who i cant trust and my kids are going to suffer from this which is the worst part. She wants someone who will go where she needs them to go with her. Writing on the wall.

What to do with ny life now.