This is my first post and I'm not too familiar with Reddit etiquette, so forgive me if I break any rules. I'm 31yo male that recently started dating a 30yo woman. Been together 4 months. I'll just stick to the point and summarize as best as I can...After like maybe 3 weeks she drunkenly told me she loved me. Also after 3 weeks she started getting pretty disrespectful. If she was mad at all over anything I said, or did, she would threaten to leave. Which usually resulted in me trying to convince her not to, for 30 min until she calmed down. This continued for quite sometime until I stopped showing I cared. Turns out she wasn't even leaving, just going downstairs to her car waiting for me to call her.

We fight ALOT! Mostly because of my insecurities, and I'm working on that as I become more aware or "woke". At about 2 months in I'm getting tatted up, she's with me. After I'm done she ask my tattoo guy if he can give her a tat with my name under her boob. I told her not to. I remember sitting in the tattoo chair looking down at her while I'm getting tatted thinking, this bitch is crazy af!! Then she says that and goes through with it.

Despite getting my name tatted, this girl is soooo disrespectful. She yells and screams at me if I really make her upset, I guess that's the reason? I HATE people being in my business. I live by myself, I'm a lowkey guy, and I can't stand when my neighbors can hear us fighting, mostly her yelling. Then they hear her when she goes downstairs, gets in her car, and yells and screams at me. She hangs up on me if she gets mad, calls me back, hangs up again... She tells me to stfu. I mean I say these same things to her so in a way I introduced it. I'll admit that.

I ended up "googling" my problems, and bumped into a post from this community. Which sent me down a rabbit hole, not gonna lie(Hopefully I can say that without my post getting sniped). I've been watching alot of Alpha Male Strategies videos, and Stephiscold. Obviously I've started acting different over the past few weeks. She can't really get me out of my character and she's responding differently.

Let me just tell you why I'm with her so I don't paint her to be a villain. In fact let me be pretty transparent with my behavior. When we met we def fucked on the first night, so I knew she was attracted to me. She's wanted to see me every single day since then. I know I can be insecure, and because of that I don't date women that are not 3/4 compatible with my personality. I didn't use Instagram, only Facebook. She insisted I make one so I did. I followed her and saw she had mostly male followers over 1,000 probably. She's a good looking girl with a phat booty. I told her I don't really date girls who are big into social media, and she was like fuck it, I'll delete it and just follow my girlfriends, and she did. She made me get Snapchat... She's showing me something on there, but once I saw her score was at 100,000 I was done. Again, I just know I'm insecure, so I don't even let myself get involved at this age. Again, she deleted the old one and made a new one, with just her girlfriends.

After reading all this back I guess this is more of a vent post. Opinions and comments are definitely more than welcome. I acknowledge I have TONS of work to do on myself from this point forward. Thanks for taking the time to read.