I [20 ftm] am plauged by internalized misandry. i am often disgusted by myself for displaying traits i deem as masculine. of course i believe most masculine traits are as followed, insecurity, anger, greed, manipulation, irrationality, sex obsession. i have met very few good men, and i cant say i truly know any genuinely good man. all men i have known have displayed some act of disgusting inferiority. im often disappointed by any man i at some point considered my friend. i believe completely the way i feel about men is the way homophobes feel toward gays, the way racists feel toward people of color. this world only makes sense to me through the lense that men, all men, are greedy self serving manipulative pawns of ill intent, power hungry scheming frauds. there is nothing i can find to help me with these feelings, anyone ive seen talking about this is of course a butthurt childish man complaining about how women made him feel this way, just a deflective manipulative immature whiney expression of "waahhh waaah women have expressed how men are bad and i would rather choose to see myself as a victim than listen and be empathetic!" men are the reason i hate men. i grew up as a woman, i know how men see women, and i see men the way men see women. a good man is a quiet man who does what hes told, a great man is a sex object, this is the natural order of the world to me. when i see a man who is angry, it disgusts and embarasses me, i think something akin to "must be on your period or something" however men dont have a good explaination like that, men have no reason to raise their voice and make people feel small, however its in a mans nature to be a bad person. men are so insecure, they ruin boys, they tell young boys to shove down their emotions and then complain about how men arent allowed to be emotional. i despise myself for being a man. anytime i shout or cry or say something insensitive or plain idiotic, i imagine my father or my brother acting the same way and i feel a deep deep disgust and hatred toward myself. i wanted to be a boy, i was happy as a boy, and the more i grow the more i see my male friends grow into self serving vapid subhumans, the more i see myself becoming a stupid selfish manipulative hormonal idiot!!! i cant find any example of a good man to look up to, there is only filth, there is only the hurt hurting others. men built up this system that destroys men and turns them into worthless insecure whores. anyways i know this is a very bad way of thinking, but i just cant see men as people, only threats and childish idiots. please help!