Hey, gents. I have been dealing with this for a long time, and I've reached the sickening conclusion that today, I'd surely be called a rapist. First, to men who've been taken advantage of (saying "raped" still hurts my guts), I'm sorry. Particularly those of you who wanted/sought help only to be disparaged for your efforts. That's fucked up, and I'm sorry. I did the whole "coming of age" thing before #metoo; I drank a lot; and I enjoy the company of men-types. I've never, ever ever ever intentionally hurt anyone, nor have I ever forced a situation, which is to say that all parties were on board for the making out, playing around stuff... but, there were many times when a guy would do the "wait wait, slow down, I want to get to know you more" thing; I'd put my finger to his lips and comeback with "no, you don't. I'm fucking trash"; and continue on my way. This could be spread to so many different subs, but I put it in here to be accountable and to affirm your rights, as men, to be treated equally in the face of sexual misconduct. I'm so fucking sorry. **This isn't some blanket attempt to unfoul my previous wrongs by making a generic internet post. I've a traumatic brain injury (s/t and l/t memory deficits) and alcohol played a role in my misdeeds/crimes. I've no way of knowing the number - much less the identity - of those I've hurt, so this is my sincere best effort to make anything good come of my bullshit.