Story/regrets time

I was young and ¬¬chubby¬¬ fat. I was disillusioned with college. I was working at a degree i didn't have the motivation for. Or was too lazy, whatever.
In the end of this, I got a job and a visa on the other side of the world to change my lifestyle, and for a year it worked. In a way.

I worked for an obese man with extremely cheap rent and (hindsight tells me) a redpill look on life. While i was there, I found my wife, a customer, but someone i had been out socially with, and someone i liked the company of.

She was my visa to this foreign country, she would do everything sexually to me my previous girlfriends had not (HA! head, was beta obese after all), and was actually good fun to be around. We got married, i got my visa so i could stay in her country, woo hoo!

Redpill, i was chained. I was working my arse off, while she might have done the same, but we rarely had savings at the end of any given pay cycle. There were a couple of red flag instances, but they were pre reddit days. I Knew no better, thought it might be my paranoia. Might still be, but whatever.

While we were in her country, we thought we'd try for the free IVF her country offered. What was the result?
The IVF doctor told her to lose weight, or she'd be ineligible.

She didn't lose weight. We both gained it. She was kicked off IVF. Her IVF doctor was fatter than her apparently.

Anyway, we have moved to where i was born through great expenditure (visas to my home country aren't cheap). She has little link to draw her back to where she is from, and has her visa to here now.

In the last year i have lost over 30lbs only to prove that it's possible (maybe get back in the game), taken up jogging, experimented sexually, and done my damndest to be as frugal as possible, being careful on what i eat.

Today i've caught her devouring a pack of monte carlos as we plan a holiday that'll take a good proportion out of our savings..

(she finished the monte carlos)

Redpill, I'm not asking for advice, i've been lurking you plenty enough. I'm working on it, but it's an effort.

As advice, please, DO NOT take the first vag that will (suck your cock/wank you off on the train/kiss you in public). As long as you can keep perspective until you're 30, you WILL FIND BETTER THAN THAT OBESE CUNT.

OK, my body chemistry and says i love her and have a responsibility for her because of my visa to her country. She (literally, not joking, etc) has just told me we have an appointment at the IVF clinic tomorrow. We have had sex once in the last three years.

Redpill, i'm fucked, aren't I?

edit: Hi to galgy, snm, majic. Thank you guys.