The discharge I had been released due to the "DOS Rollback" program, The root of the problem was caused by me smoking tobacco in my room when I shouldn't have been. The turning point which caused me to get kicked out was the fact I had playboy posters In my room (the woman were covered up), my so called Male commander thought it was too offensive for any women that would walk in my room, and said " this was the last straw".

I was demoted to e-1 from e-3 and had to work 45 days straight with 12 hour shifts no days off, and 60 days base lockdown suspension. I was told I wasn't going to get kicked out , but the change in command brought in another commander who felt otherwise, thus leading to the end of my Air force career.

The silly relationship problems
Now this may sound weird, but I've had beta/alpha tendencies, I'm not a full blown alpha male, and it has a lot to do with my mental process , and partially my dad. ( way too long of a story) I had a long distance relationship when I got to my first duty station with some chick and it was alright; I would party every weekend, and still flirt with girls etc.....BUT there was this one girl I really wanted, and it was her older sister. She was way more mature and down to earth, the younger one was just ditzy and close minded, I wanted a woman that could stimulate more than my dick when I don't want to fuck. I couldn't have her though, she was my friend's plate and I was fucking the younger sister.

As time went on, the younger sister decided to join the airforce as well ,and left. This is where the relationship transferred into "long distance". She visited me a few times because of of holidays and Recruiters assistance, but surprisingly like women normally do, the moment she got to her first duty station and found new meat, the relationship starts getting rocky. It should be noted that I go into beta mode when things don't go my way, so when the relationship started getting bad; all of a sudden I'm losing the love of my life.
It started the moment she asked me if I was cheating on her, and I told her "No, im not" and she replies with her saying "Well i just found out I have chlamydia". My first thought is "what the fuck??? How is that possible I haven't seen you for a month" but I kept cool and got tested. The results came back negative in every direction, by this time she wasn't really talking to me and was starting to ignore me and not return any of my calls. I didn't know how to act, I was bad I would argue with her every chance she took to talk to me until finally I decided to speak to her sister.

Her sister had no clue as to why she was acting in such a way, and felt bad about the type of person I was becoming. As i've said before when things are running perfectly I'm like an alpha but if something goes wrong I beat myself up into a beta. The older sister decided she would come help me clean up my room and get me off of my ass, and she did! I thanked her and we kept hanging out, between that time I broke it off with her younger sister and kept hanging out with the older one. 2 weeks later , I ended up beign the only person that took her out for her birthday, and I must've made her feel special because the following weekend which we planned to go out, she decided to play dress up for me LIVE. I'm not unfamiliar with game so I pounced on it , and without any hassle by the end of the week we were messing around , but then one night in the middle of fucking she couldn't take the guilt anymore of fucking her younger sisters ex-boyfriend, and started backing off of me. I switched to beta mode and asked to still be friends and hang out. This whole time all this was going on, she had originally gotten my roomates number and was talking to him through text messaging. They never hung out because she was sleeping with me and around me 24/7, but after dealing with her shit for a few more weeks; on my last day in Arizona before I officially got discharged. She hung out with me and my friends, and decides to leave early and kisses me on the cheek in front of all my friends, and says she's going home.

LET ME TELL YOU WHAT SHE REALLY DID.

She went to the parking lot moved her car over to the next parking lot, and went back upstair on the otherside of the building and went to my roomates room. Let's just say I was not happy to walk into the kitchen and see her come out the shower and walk into my roomates room, but like usual my beta mode just want into overdrive and I sulked on the bench with one of my good friends, and then we got drunk. At around 2 in the morning she texted me to meet her to speak to her , and I did and I shamed her for an hour straight until she came up with a good response , which was pretty much " If you're gonna bitch and moan about how bad I am then just leave"................................................................. .............................................................................. ..................................................but don't worry guys *sigh* I forgave her.

After all this shit I forgave her and spent the last two nights with her as we talked about keeping in touch and her visiting. Long story short, I was never visited, and was barely spoken to and every phone call we had was cut short with "I'll call you back, I promise!"

The change
In all honesty ,every time I look back; I really wished I had "fucked n' ducked" and spent those last few weeks with the people who still call me and still support me everyday, my friends. I neglected them so much for some pussy and they told me everyday to leave her alone, "you have better things to worry about", and I did. I was offered to go out to california and the grand canyon, and I rejected it. You already enter a brotherhood when you're in the military, but when you have close friends within that brotherhood, they re no difference from blood in anyway. I've spent a lot of time alone with myself, and I realized I didn't make the best of my life, stupid decisions left me full of regret, and I all I can do is live with it and prevent it from happening again. This year I've made a pact with myself to avoid relationships, Make more money then i've ever made before, and become fit. I've been dieting and exercising since January and I've dropped about 35 lb's and have gotten a bit more muscular

Here's how my progress at the GYM is going, If anyone has any questions about what i've been doing I'll be glad to inform.

Here I weighed around 220:
Before

I would have more old pictures but part of renewing me means forgetting the past and the useless picture that went with it.

Here I weighed about 180:
After1
After2
After3
After4

All in all I think it's a slow loss, but a steady one and I enjoy because I can still have a drink or two on the weekends. As for money, I've recently started my apprenticeship at the UA and busting my ass 4-6 days a week 10 hours a day ,I've finally made a plan on where I want to be in Life, and I want to be a tradesmen. My long term goals include, obtaining my welding certificate and master plumbers license, obtaining an engineering degree, and moving on to a company like tesla motors, lexus.

Financial plans I've already set up an IRA putting in $200 a month and a money market which gets the exact same amount per month, and a plain old liquid savings account which gets about 50 bucks a month and w.e I decide to put in it. I'm 22 but by the time I turn out I want to double the deposits on each account, I plan on using my G.I bill for the OJT I go through with my apprenticeship and save the $700 month I will get for about 2 years, if I save that up I will be able to afford schooling on my own and have extra money on the side to spend.

As far as fun goes I've been going out with my gay friend a lot, to clubs, and he's helping me out a lot. He's my frontman (for now) when it comes to women. We are working on my social skills so I can pick up woman on a dime, he points out my flaws when it comes to social events, very upfront if you've read my previous posts.The trick is he used to be straight, so he still got some tricks up his sleeve. I watch him extensively and I take notes. Right now my biggest hobbies are Clothes, eating....and well drugs. I can't really eat what i want all the time, but I can purchase a nice shirt sometimes and I partake only on the weekends, I study all my habits before and after and do anything I can to hinder any of the negative effects these drugs may have, but I just enjoy being intoxicated in different ways, judge me if you want.There's a lot more to it, but I can't help being intoxicated surrounded by people in a night club I probably have no buisness being in, the fear and excitement and sex and curiosity meshed together by a haze is amazing, some people escape by reading a book, mine is getting faded at clubs. People always worry about habits forming, but I literally can't stand not being sober if I'm not in a club and I only party on the weekends and it's maybe every other weekend ,it's rare I go out consecutive weekends.

TL;DR I was basically kicked out of the military because I can't have pictures of half naked women in my own personal space, It's too offensive. It's cool to fuck sisters behind their back and all, but don't put that as a priority over your best friends when you may not see them again for years. This is just a small taste of how my life has been, but i've been lurking and Now I'm posting, and making changes to my overall fitness,my looks, my outlook, EVERYTHING, I WANT TO BE GREAT, and that is exactly what I'm going to do.