So I have been with my girlfriend for a little over a year. The entire thing has been a mess of ups and downs. I cheated on her once in the beginning, and since then she has had 'trust issues' which I can understand, but at the same time she uses it against me for every little thing she can. This was about 9 months ago, and she still brings it up. God forbid I am texting another girl, a fight will ensue. I have literally not done a single bad thing since, and I have broken ties with tons of friends who she considers problematic. Meanwhile, she keeps in contact with ex's and guys that I know shes been with, but justifies it with bullshit like 'we're good friends' and all that horse shit. She also thinks its ok because she shows me the conversations she has with them. While she may not be saying anything bad, the guys are clearly flirting with her and have even talked shit about me. But its all good, because she never entertains it. Get the fuck out of here with that. Even worse, she has the worst mood swings ever. I never know when something I do or say will set her off. Today is no exception. I smoked some weed and she said I ruined her valentines day. She always seems to be upset on big days, because I always end up doing something to piss her off and 'ruin the whole day.' I could literally go on for hours ranting about our issues, but I need to get to the point.

So the thing is, being with her is more convenient than not in the current part of my life. First off, I just started working a few months ago, and before that she gave me a lot of money to fuck around before my job started. Second off, she has her own place and lives so much closer to my job than my parents house. Also, living with her, no matter how much of a bitch she is, is better than living with my parents. Third, I really don't love her, and this is great. I did like her a lot at first, but she is so unpleasant that I lost all respect for her. I have literally been faking my feelings for her for months, to take advantage of the things I use her for. I can fuck basically whenever I please. When she does get mad at me and looks for a fight, I either ridicule her or just ignore it and go watch TV in another room. Besides the obvious kickback of abstaining from being with other girls, the whole situation has made other aspects of my life easier. Sometimes, she is close to catching on, as I always hear the typical 'you dont love me' and 'you are the worst boyfriend ever.' Whatever. She's right. I do what I need to in order to keep her around, and nothing more. The thing is, I don't know how much longer I want to do this for. I can sense the end nearing, as I am finally in a better financial situation. I know the whole thing seems fucked up, but she is such a shitty person that I do not care. I once cared and wasn't sure, but I have taken TRP philosiphy and molded it to fit my situation, and I know I am in complete control even if she thinks she has me by the balls. I am going to wait until she does or says something really fucked up, and then break it off, in a way that she will realize how fucked up she's been to me when its too late. The thought of her knowing I have been released back into the wild, going around being a player again, will eat her up inside and I can not wait. Her jealousy is insane; she will regret it instantly, and it will be tooooo late. Sorry for the rant, but she is currently mad at me for that bullshit I said earlier so I have nothing else to do on this awesome valentines day. When the day comes, and I think its going to be soon, I will be sure to give an update on everything. Thanks guys, I appreciate the things I have learned through TRP.. I hope you all get a little kick out of my situation.

Edit 1: I am not in complete control. Thank you /u/jhsf for pointing that out

Edit 2: I cannot call myself a player. My player card is temporarily revoked

Edit 3: I haven't learned shit yet. And there is nothing enjoyable about my situation