I don't know if this is the place to post this but it's the only place I feel has the like minded hard dick killers I was raised by as a child.

Back story: 2 years ago I dumped this blonde skinny suicidal ex stripper looking for a husband. She was a deff a HE 9 but obviously fucked in the head with daddy issues, a huge body count and...oh yea an EX FUCK ING STRIPPER! no way was I going to start a family with this bitch..I'm ma miss dat booty doe. Aaannyway, I'm chilling refilling the roster. I was three plates deep. And i met this one chick who changed the game up on me...so I thought. Tight body jet black hair green eyes really white and super feminine. A little less then the chicks I usually date about an 7/8 but something I liked. Think of that bitch from American Pie the band camp bitch. So I eventually fuck her and put her in the roster. But the more we talked the more I just kept fucking her and eventually went exclusive. I dropped my plates and was a bf. This bitch cooked she cleaned she would shit test me but I would just kick her out if she ever annoyed me. Shed always come back 5 min to apologies. Shed cry every time I looked annoyed because "I was so much better then her. I was like a god to her" and shit. Felt real good. Too good. I was getting scared of how serious I mite get with her...

So I'm in the military and I deploy. I give her the option of leaving before I go. She bawls her eyes out and desperately wants to continue the relationship so against my better judgements I stay and deploy. She passes every shit test that I GIVE HER. Every time we go out I get a buddy she Dosent know to game her and she shuts him and strangers alike down harshly..and when I'm deployed every three days there's another pic on fb about how she's waiting there watching netflix, crying, or working out for my man. I get back and it's like I never left..it's weird. She seems too perfect. Things are going great. I get relaxed. Another deployment comes down and same routine. Until the last month....

At first she would always blow up my fb wanting to skype and shit but around the last month I'm barely in contact with the bitch. So then I try and contact her and she always has an excuse as to why she can't now or she can talk for a lil bit. I'm like bitch I'm deployed! When I want to talk to you, everything els better get pushed to the right and make time for this! She crys and....starts to fucking hamster....This bitch. So I don't break frame and I don't care. But I'm not going to lie. Being deployed really shit on your mind and with nothing to distract you from this kind of shit it really starts to fuck with you. No other bitches for dread. None of my close buds came with me so no real friends to hang out with. Just these beta fucks who joined in hopes of pretending to be alpha. Nothing. Just dirt. So a week goes by no contact. Two weeks go by. Still no fucking contact... I'm about to go home and this cunt can't even discuss logistics for my return. I smell somthing rotten. I get to a wifi and check up on the snap chat. There I see what made me loose my cool and break. I see her snaps and it's just her with her girl friend (ONS single mom) and it's gravy. Look at her friends snap and it's her my gf and these two other wiggers and they went to a strip club. Now my gf told me when I would fuck with her about fucking strippers that she went one time and hated it and would never ever go back even if people paid her. So something not rite. I call her and call her out on this shit. And i was expecting her apologies as usual and utter remorse for disrespecting me this way. What she said PISSED ME OFF!! She defended this. Saying that her friend was fucking one of them and the other is a friend from work and she could understand how it looked but it was NOT A BIG DEAL. I lost it. I told her she was fucking up by me and that I'm not gonna stand here dating her risking my fucking life for this fucking "friend" who isn't not, trying to fuck. And being totally disrespected as a man. She hit me with the "I can't believe how you don't trust me you think I'm just going to fuck these dude" and I replied with a no I don't trust you. Your female and you already broke my trust by going against your earlier story of hating the strip club and going drinking with scum without telling me. She said she didn't know if she wanted to continue to date someone who doesn't trust her. I was like "oh you don't know? I'll decide for you like I have our whole relationship, we're done". She's crying her eyes out saying I thought you were going to be the father of my children and shit. I zoned out. I knew what it was. She dumped me without actually dumbing me. I took the fault so she feels like the victim and the one who got dumped. I'm pretty sure she got fucked sometime after that because I waited to see if she would contact me to apologies like she always did...... Not this time.. Probably swang to the next branch of the wigger...

So here I stand with pill in had.. I thought I was alpha. I thought I didn't need help. I thought I believed in unicorns.....

So TRP I'm ready. Into the wild I go. Tell me what I did wrong. How I could avoid this happening again. I'll be getting home in a few days and really excited to knock the cobwebs off my game. I'm leaving the military soon to pursue more lucrative endeavors. I did my national responsibility and learned the true horrors of life. OK I've rambled enough.