Ive dabbled in redpill theory for a while, but would lose the idea, and go back to hating redpillers. today, I think i managed to digest it, suck it up and roll.

my confessions: I learned pua stuff several years ago and became a jester for my friends. 'he can meet girls, take him with us.' sadly, this never worked to make me happy or fullfilled and Id wind up with long dry spells in between. 2-3 weeks of awesomeness, months of loneliness and fapping, repeat repeat.

looking back at my dryspells, I could always see the point that broke me free from it(no shit), but it was when I would man up and go out to fuck some shit up. getting myself 'in frame' was difficult, and staying in there even harder.

this changes now, today. I 100% accept my fate as a man, that everything is 100% MY responsibility, that the rules arent 'fair,' and that no one cares if I fail- but everyone 'cares' when I succeed.

greetings all, if a mod would like a verification from my regular account- id be more than happy to supply