About 2 years ago I was in a relationship that made me a bitch. I was dependant on this girl (17years old we both were). My social life revolved around her because I had dropped everything for this girl. She treated me like shit, always came to me last and excluded me from everything, I became depressed during the relationship and was made out to be a little bitch even though I'm good looking and a strong build. I was made out to be nothing by her. We break up after almost a year and I'm devastated, it felt like every door of opportunity was shut now that I wasn't with her, I'd discarded all my friends and was alone for a good Half year. I developed depression during this time to the point of where I spent 4 months just in bed, trying to sleep away the pain. When you're alone for that long you develop a new identity, you're by yourself for so long that you become your own best friend. You don't care what anyone says to you as you become so numb to the world around you. The first week after we broke up I was getting told by her friends how she was getting fucked by other dudes left right and centre, and since they're her friend they all supported her. I was shot down. I decided after so long of mental torture that enough was enough. I built my new identity. I came from the shadows. I started doing me, started eating better again, started getting back into the gym and doing stuff that I wanted to be doing not anyone else. I invested time into what I enjoy doing and started become my own best friend. Once you become comfortable with who you are you don't need to seek anyone's approval, you do what you want and you justify it. After a year I was back on my feet, going out and having a laugh. A few months after that i swallowed the red pill. Did my own thing, stopped caring about kissing ass to women as they're the ones with the pussy. I started speaking to girls straight in a club, get with them then ask if they want to come back to mine. Every time it worked, I fuckin love one nights stands. Nowadays I do what I want, I don't seek approval of others and I'm on top of my game. I'm travelling thailand in a few months on my own just for the experience and the fun that I expect out there. I don't need anyone to come with me as I know I'll be better on my own. Surround yourself with friends, loyal ones and just enjoy life. I no longer speak to girls... They speak to me. I was knocked down, got back up, made new friends and am living and loving life. Swallow the red pill, stop giving a fuck and start being independent. That's true alpha.