Maybe this belongs in askTRP, not really sure how rants go, but it's fresh on my mind so here it goes. Last night, I went to pay my rent. It was after hours and the lights were on, so I went in. It was only the late 40's receptionist (works out, nice T&A, big spot on her face). Every time we're alone, I swear it's like the beginning of a porno. She's always saying I'm cute and handsome, maybe even flirting but I have no concept of what flirtation is or looks like so I don't know. Anyway, she's wearing a party dress with cleavage hanging out and gets me to stay around and wait for her female trucker friend to show up. She did say she'd drop me off somewhere eventually, but she was still being that way with me, thinking I could get some. So we drove around looking for a bar or club, and they found a place where I didn't fit the dress code b/c I was wearing work clothes. I just said to drop me off ASAP and slammed the door on my way out. Then cue the nightly screaming and raging at people and breaking stuff (you get away with a lot in the city). I stayed sober, jacked off, and eventually went to bed.

I'm at a stage with RP that I almost halfway get it and I can tell when I'm being BP but I just do it helplessly anyway. However, I'm letting out all kinds of venom and it's making me much more fearless (I'm also somewhat unstable so there's that). I made a post last month about the guy who made out with the chick I was talking to (interesting post-note to that if interested). I know I'm being more sociopathic than RP, but is this normal when adjusting to RP and getting over years of sexual frustration?