A conflict I'm having with my thoughts has arisen and I need advice. I have been refilled, fully believing. I dont read up too much anymore because i was burned so bad that ive sworn off women entirely after that and reading a bit on here, i no longer believe there is a single woman on earth capable or returning the love and emotions i have to give. Recently I was at a narcotics anonymous meeting because I'm a recovering drug addict and a woman was sharing what she was going through that day. She had in infant in her arms and starts talking about her relationship with the child's father and how she loves him so much but he doesn't seem to care about her like she does him, she burst into tears when she started talking about how she planned a family outing for fathers day and at the last minute he mentions his guy friend is coming, she feels like he doesn't want to have any family time with her. Now, the woman(women really, but the last serious relationship in particular really fucked me up, we were engaged, living together, I would have murdered for her. If you tried to tell me she was playing me I would have told you to fuck yourself and cut you out of my life. This woman was a fucking master manipulator, inventing a whole story about how she almost died from cancer 5 years ago, how her ex husband got blown up in afghanistan, and kn top of that she truly did have really debilitating crohns disease, she would sometimes dry heave until blood would come out or shed spend days in bed in brutal stomach pain, I don't doubt that because she was literally sweating from the pain. But my point is this woman would sometimes cry real tears and tell me how much she loved me, how she doesn't deserve such a loving man who takes care of her so well, how she feels so shitty that I have to deal with her illness, etc so tears alone don't convince me. But what is this woman at the meetings angle? She has nothing to gain by sharing that it seems? Please help me understand guys