I just wanted to say that i have improved my dating life by quite a lot. But it wasn't done with disrespecting or not caring about women, It was by respecting myself. I have had an alone(no male friend) period of 3 months in school, just me and my fears. The fears that have controlled my life since the beginning of high school(2nd year in college now). Fear of talking to a girl alone, fear of staying alone with myself. And worst of all, i tried to overcome my emotional neediness. Because i consider myself a very masculine man, or i want to be one more importantly. So i always try to fix the broken parts by myself and by experimenting. I didn't want to give up, your psychology is shaped by the reminiscent of your childhood and your genes. But i didn't want to be controlled by them, so what i was a silent scared man before. So what i was being humiliated sometimes in high school and that made me quieter. I know that now, i laugh around that BS and attack back the person who is trying to make fun of me. I don't run away or feel ashamed, I just laugh it off. And when I laugh it off, nobody cares about it or makes fun of me anymore. I make fun of others just to mess with their head sometimes. It's all good fun i realized... And about the girls, when i was at the start of my alone period i was scared as hell talking to them. There was nobody that tried to support me, not any of my popular "friends". In the dating game you are alone by yourself, you have to believe in yourself, and sure i did. I met with a girl by myself by creating an excuse(I asked her for lecture notes). I started texting and talking with this girl, and my confidence has built up. I said her that i liked her and asked her for a date.

So here is the important part, she said she thought i wanted to be her friend but then I realized i actually was scared of actually flirting with her,mentally. I was too kind and talkative and didn't give the confident vibe. But she considered it and said yes because i really was spot on and brave with her. We are dating for a month now, and let me say that i am much less emotional and needy. I feel better, I feel like not a complete man but a man who is trying to be as complete as possible. I have made new friends without being in a safezone... By safezone i mean a friend that will back you up anywhere anytime. I left that kind of friendship and put that on a shelf. If people like me, they like me for who i am, not because of what i bring to the table. If a girl doesn't like me for my personality, she can go away anytime she wants i don't care.

I will never ever be the male who will wait since his 30s and try to marry the leftover girls because he is wealthy. I will be the one who gets them by himself.

Seriously guys, stop focusing on being "alpha", start focusing on fixing your insecurities and getting out of your safe zone. Life will never help you, and never will be perfect. You need to get up and fix your problems and fight yourself. While you are fighting your problems, you will find yourself to be a more manly and confident man. Don't swallow the Red Pill, it is a road, not a destination. You can't fake being a man, but you sure as hell can get there with your ambition.

As a result i now consider ending this relationship after a month or so, because i realized i am not getting out what i want from it. Get what you want and don't let the girl control the relationship, ever. Now, i don't even try to flirt but girls just come to me. Because i don't feel lonely now, i feel great by myself.

Keep in mind i was a guy that was crying in his car for hours because i was emotionally lost and felt hopeless. I cried like this for a month or two regularly, just because I was out of my safe zone. Now checking in after 4 months, this crybaby now is trying to be a man.

I hope this tangled up story helps some people out there