I swallowed the red pill 9 months ago. After a recent long-term bluepill relationship I was left out in the wild and didn't know what follows and a friend showed me this glorious community. I read a lot of the content on the sidebar and I've come to see that putting pussy on a pedestal is a fucking waste of emotional power, every chick I saw before as a goddess of 'womenkind' is now just a regular human like every other. I've come to understand that there's hypergamy. I learned that they like to be treated like sex toys in bed. I learned many things among babytalk, power talk, etc. etc. and etc. Women are this women are that women women women. It's all about us understanding them. I mean, there are whole communities dedicated to that.
And then, there are people like me, and I think I'm not the only one. I go to work, earn a lot of money to live alone and independently, fill the car when I need to, not when I have money, go out every night and drink myself to death if I please so. Outgoing, above average looks, above average body. Activities are still to come, since finding such without further screwing my back is hard, but hey isn't that fucking enough? Yeah, you have friends, work, money, hobbies, favourite things, character and you live your life like you fucking please. But your white trash family is far away and in the end they screwed everything up so hard, that the only communication with them is when they want me to send them some money. And you live your life, work, socialize, find a fuck once or twice a month and then get to your house/apartment, alone. Everything is how you left it. You've come so far, only to know that the only progress remaining is time. You progressed financially, physically, socially and only time can improve that further.
And one day you go out to drink with friends casually, not expecting something in particular, while rolling eyes around the bar for something juicy. You find a girl and strike up a conversation. You talk and talk, but then you forget that you want to bang her. You are truly interested in what she has to say. And then you fuck. The sex is amazing. You go out, drink with friends, watch movies at home. Talk about life, beauty, art, compassion, then some about poverty, misery, wars and then fuck again. You call each other, you are anticipating to see her and talk to her, you are really starting to care about her, you are applying RP and from time to time BP, just for variety. She's madly in love with you and everything is going so smooth. And then you get sick, work stuff fucks up and parents need money. You are left with no money, loaded at work and sick. And you lose frame. You lose your fucking frame for a few days and everything goes down the fucking drain. She starts shit testing you, not calling you, telling you this was all a mistake and other women shit. But you invested so much time in this and it was so fucking good you start trying to set things back, but no, you lost frame of reference and you are now a blue pill faggot searching for affection, because your emotions are kicking in and you no longer have that head start. The more you do it, the more you lose dignity, respect and authority, in front of her, in front of your friends and in your job. I give up, it's not worth it. Paycheck is after two days. Everything will be back to checkpoint A. And I'm going to punch the next human that tells me that women are worth for anything more than fucking and breeding.
I always make the same fucking mistake, being naive and thinking that this time things are different. But what if I'm missing on someone or something if I act like I act on 99% of girls? No you are not. If she's not ugly, fat, crippled, mentally disabled or old, she's gonna judge you and find something not worthy every time you break frame and show that you are actually a human creature. Women don't like humans, they like gods. If she does not worship you, you are just a peasant to her. Equality does not exist.