2007 - I am 17yo. Average looking guy, geek type, very shy and completely unable to talk to a woman. I first Google "How to date a girl". I discover the Game. My world change.

2013 - 23yo now. I've changed. I'm not the boy I was a few years ago. I've learned life, I've overcomed (alone) my anxiety and shyness. I'm going to the gym. I moved from "a random guy nobody wants" to "someone a lot of girls want to fuck". Everything is easy.

2014 - I meet the girl of my life. I fall in love. True love and not some one itis bullshit. The one that sounds like the biggest slap in the face life gave me. We stay together for 4years 1/2. Paradise... then, Hell.

2017/2018 - I am now 27yo. I end the relationship in October. Not only because of her but because of me also. I'm in depression (severe depression, according to my therapist) since more than 1 year. Lost my job, Lost 3 very close people in less than 1year, find no meaning in my life, etc. The real shit. I even though about suicide. A few times. I spent DAYS in my bed, alone, doing nothing but masturbating or playing video games, seeing and talking to nobody.
Now I'm getting better everyday. The darker days are way behing me even if I have some ups and downs, and that my average is still not that good. I even experienced happiness again on a few occasions. All my problems are far from being answered but I'm on a good way, I think.

However I think I need help to go further. I needed help that only a professional therapist could provide to help me go out of the dark zone. Now I want to rise again, and become the one I was back then (even if I will never be the same, I want to be again in REAL control of my life). I don't know if this is the good place for that. Maybe not. But if yes, how can you help me ?