Summary: Reality cannot be bickered with. You can hate and deny it, and fester in your bad feelings, or you can accept it and live as you like.

Some people say TRP is misogynist. They're right. But in many ways this is what you think would happen when you "take the red pill," you become bitter. Disenchanted. When you realize the truth about something we've all been told to value so greatly -- human love -- you can't help but become a little bitter. In fact taking the red pill is a great way to amplify the bitterness one has about women, and most of the time one takes the red pill because they've had bad experiences with women. I did.

It's hard for me to write this, because it seems as though this life was lived by another person. As Don Draper says, "it'll shock you how much it didn't happen." Indeed it shocks me. I was a typical bluepiller. I fell in love with every girl I met because I had problems with the women in my family, and my ego and intelligence (in that order of importance) ostracized me from the girls in school. I grew to become a polarizing figure, but never a friend. I was admired and respected, or else detested, and always from afar. Much of my life has been without what I ever considered to be a true friend, and those I sometimes hoped would be in reality most often disappointed. I took some form of the red pill and I learned how women work sexually, and I completely used many women for sex. I didn't enjoy the sex, and I didn't know the women. I simply did it. Because something inside of me told me to do it.

This 'something' inside of me, like a voice, was the impulse to conform. The 'alpha male' image I'd been fed my entire life was the slut-banger, the weight-lifter, the money-maker, the powerful, the important, the wealthy, the successful. I knew for a long time that I'd been imprinted by a society that I detested, but I failed to act on this repressed understanding.

I have much more to write but I know most readers don't have much more time or patience to bear such a long-winded post as this could be. I'll make it short. Understanding how women work sexually is understanding one very small part of how society works. 99% of TRP posts are about changing your behavior to achieve desired outcomes in the form of some girl texting you for sex or begging for you to come back to her. In fact, that's how most posts are validated. But hate-fucking some girl because you analyzed her psychology and pushed the right buttons to make her pull down her pants will not make you happy. If you've come so far as to read this post, you will not be happy until you go all the way done the rabbit hole. Sure, the economic nature of female sexuality hurts our Hollywood sentiments of true and unconditional love. But it's the truth.

So you can either sit there and hate it or you can understand it and act accordingly. Most posts here come with a note of disgust. But posters fail to apply that disgust to, for example, their own regard for sex as a social power determinant. Once you've taken the red pill, you can't quite go back to the quiet life, getting the girls you happen to get and the jobs you happen to get and the praise you happen to get and so on. But it's equally wrong to sit here at one part of your awakening, the part where you realize how love and sexuality actually works, and hate on it.

The pain of most who frequent here is heartbreak. Because we learned the love that we'd been taught had been a lie. So we react emotionally, like an abandoned child, because this is one of the most trying steps in the realization that the world is not at all how it's been presented. But it's not the last. And the only way past this one is to recognize that the cold economics of love are observably true, to release any bitterness associated with this process (which requires releasing any regard for how you're viewed or valued), and to begin to dissect the structures which promoted that bitterness.

Lessons Learned: Attaching hate or disgust to the shock of realizing the truth about the world will only stall your development towards new realizations, and eventually self-realization. You can only achieve happiness when you know what you truly want, and you'll only know what you truly want when you can separate your self from all of the bullshit influences that have been lathered on you. Stop hating women, stop being disgusted with their sexual economics. This is one process of many, and you can either hate it or accept it and move on to greater things.