LTR has been a bit shaky the last fours days. She's very needy. WE've been studying for exams. Definitely BPD. I haven't been able to give her as much attention as usual. Perhaps failed a few comfortt tests. But I feel like I've been pretty supportive.

Anyway, I am still studying for exams and have one more week. She has finished. She starts drama the night of her final exam, I don thandle it well and get angry at her. She apologises later. But I don't look at the mesages. We settle things later the next day. But shes been pretty bratty.

She talks about not wanting to care for me as much because she feels like I dont care about her enough or that she can't care about me because of that. She says she like a baby and just needs to be cared for blah blah..

Cue last night she messages as usual for a while then goes silent for three hours. Then a single message that shes going out with her girlfriend, just as shes leaving the house, and an Instagram story or her dressing with a belly top and fully sexed up. (just the two of them). I say ok and follow Tomassi guide for a GNO.

SHe knows I strongly dissaprove of GNO so I see it as a shit test and disrespect. She tries to messages me while she's out at the club "Im so tired.. I am about to fall asleep" and when she leaves two hours later. I tell her I'm in bed and asleep. She says the normal love hearts and talk tomorrow.

We had plans the next day in the afternoon, but I'm pissed at this so I cancel so I can study more and initiate a soft next. She messages me once during the day "when can we talk?" and I ignore.

Am I initiating the soft next correctly or should have I handled this differently?