Hey dudes, I met this cool super hot chick one night and got her number. Never pressed the gas much and nor did she, as she still had a relationship that was crumbling apart. Few months pass, she tried meeting but I wasn't available and a month later we set up a meet, which didn't pan out cause she was super late for whatever lame excuse and I just decided to hang with my friends and told her not to come. A couple of weeks later she calls to join me clubbing. I can tell she's hella drunk but I let her come (I later learnt she had just broken up with her bf that week). She was just a mess that night (vibes of sadness and disappointment), fainted etc etc and later wanted me to fuck her but she was barely conscious and not particularly attractive to me in that state so I rejected her. Couple of texts here and there, and one day when I'm bored, I decide to go away for weekend in a warm place and invite her to join as I felt she'd be fun. Beginning of the holiday she was cool, but wasn't letting me kiss her or fuck her (sharing a bed). 2nd night we get super drunk, kissed, and later stumbled onto an after party that happened to have 10 dudes and she was the only chick. She started flirting stupid with those mofos and I wasn't up for that so I left. She left with me and wanted to have sex, but again it was coming from bad vibes (her previous attitude made her unattractive). I told her, she was ugly to me in that moment (just the way she did it, I'm not massively stressed about a chick flirting) and didn't like the way she acted to feel valued and to go get her own room the next day. She cried and was confused cause no one ever rejected her sexually. Next morning she tried to sleep in like nothin happened, but I woke her up and told her to fuck off and go get a room (which she reluctantly did). As we started speaking after that event, she was a lot more open emotionally and admitting her own flaws and fears. I was enjoying getting to know her and her company so later told her she could accompany me for the day (which confused her even more) and she did. I tried kissing her again a few times but she wouldn't let me (but I could tell it wasn't a real rejection). I asked why she wouldn't let me kiss her, she said she didn't feel it. At this point there's a real emotional connection, and I stopped trying to kiss, as I was enjoying her company with or without it, and on the flight back there was a moment where I felt a kiss would have been appropriate but the moment was too quick and I told her, I almost kissed you there, and she said 'good'. I do realise that previously I was forcing my way into a kiss a bit, but other girls seem to let me in a lot more easily.

It's a bit of a jumbled story, but I think I could use some outside perspective on this situation.