So I used to be with this girl, non exclusively for about a month, and then for the next 6-12 months we just messed around once in a while. She used to lie about her sexual past, about how wholesome she was, when in reality, she was a predator, and turns out would fuck anything for financial gain. By this time, I was whatever about her. She could move on or not. Whatever. But after she got engaged, I turned into the biggest Beta you've seen. I even saw it in myself, and it gave me the shivers. I told her I loved her (I didn't), and wanted her back. To no avail. Then I was hanging around with another hoe (an actual prostitute, which I didn't fuck cause as I don't want to rub my dick on a public restroom urinal, I had no desire to stick my dick in her), and my eyes opened up about how slutty women can be.

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Fast forward a year, and this original girl and I are really close, but not sexually. I moved out of town, so we talk on the phone a lot, and some of it turns into phone sex, and when I see her, a little this and that, mainly I'll finger her and make out, and that but not PIV sex. I thought I loved her, but in reality, I white knighted myself, and she's just keeping me around as her BB for my resources. A few days ago, I spent some time with her. Again no sex or even messing around at all. For the past 2 days, I have been reading this sub. I skimmed it before, but this time, I was really reading. And it all made sense. ALL OF IT!!!

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To test this out, there was a HG5 (I said this was a test, as I spent the entire flight reading this sub) on the train coming from the airport last night. It was late and there must have been only like 3 other people on the train. I saw her give me a look. I looked back at her, and smiled a bit. She looked away then I started talking to her. In less than 90 seconds, I had her agreeing to come home with me. I had the frame, and confidence, and she didn't have a chance to resist. No sex, cause when she took her clothes off, she wasn't in that great a shape. Remember, I just met her. And I fingered her to climax, but no way was I gonna fuck that foul smelling vag of hers. But I did use her face like it was the nazi army invading Poland. She asked if I wanted to fuck her ass, I said no. As an experiment, I got her to agree with let me piss on her face and in her mouth, but I didn't (don't judge me, it was a test, and I've never done that before).

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Final point I'm trying to make is that, the past couple years, I was obsessed with this one girl, till I realized I was the Beta. I was the orbiter. The white knight. The sucker. The played. The tool and the fool. Knowledge is everything, and there is no turning back now. I will still talk to her, cause we actually are good friends, but not going to do anything for her. If no sex is involved next time I see her, then we'll get a drink or two, split check of course, and then I'll look for tail elsewhere.

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Remember what GI Joe used to say after every episode... Knowing is half the battle.