Brothers of TRP,

I want to relate to you a story based about how I accidentally turned blue pill torment into red pill behavior, without realizing it, long before I ever discovered TRP and had my awakening. The purpose of this story is to relate how we can use anger at our past injustices to aid us in maintaining frame when challenged and crush shit tests when we are confronted with them.

In my childhood, I experienced a lot of abuse at the hands of my mother who, in retrospect, was very likely what they would call “borderline personality disorder.” She also displays the symptoms of “histrionic.” Nearly everything awful and manipulative that a woman can be (short of a drug addict) my mother was. My father, despite being alpha at work and in the gym, was henpecked and shit tested nearly to suicide by my mother (she knew this; and actively wanted him to kill himself so she could cash out on his death). My mother was constantly physically violent, emotionally abusive, and very frequently negligent to me as a child.

If you grew up like this, and I suspect a lot of us did, you know why. But here’s why this is a good thing.

A lot of guys who have kind, gentle mothers are misled about the reality of AWALT. I’ve heard it said repeatedly on TRP “No one will love you unconditionally except your mother.” Sorry guys, even your mother’s love is conditional. AWALT still applies to your mom. It’s women who do most of the murder of their children. The result of my experiences as a child left me with a very large load of unrequited anger. When I started to improve myself, lose the fat I got from a childhood of being intentionally overfed and never exercising, when I started to break through my shyness and started to play the game, stopped being the beta orbiting faggot loser and started spinning plates openly and regularly crushing pussy… when this started, I started to become introduced to the shit test.

So for a period of time, on the outside, I was now a smart, fit, on top of his game player. My game was so sharp that I had multiple relationships with girls who were each monogamous only with me and who knew each other. But on the inside, I carried the bruises of being constantly tormented by a sadistic, histrionic, borderline mother. What his means is that I knew intimately what happens if you fail a shit test. I knew what’s at stake.

This is something that guys who have nice mothers and limited experiences don’t understand: the extent of malice that women are capable of, without checks on their behavior, is vastly deeper and darker than you realize. Just read any of the divorce threads here on TRP.

Women given enough power and not any checks will destroy a man. They will ruin his life. They will harm him in every way they possibly can. And they will not feel guilt about it, more likely they will enjoy it. They will sincerely believe they are the victim, and that he deserves it, regardless of the circumstances. They will do this to children, too, and often do. And they will not feel guilty about it. Women are capable of tremendous sweetness– to a guy with the right frame… and horrendous, guilt-wrenching cruelty – to a guy with a sufficiently wrong frame.

The thing we have to learn, sooner rather than later, is exactly what is at stake. When a woman shit tests you, even if it’s something small and harmless, she’s sensing your fitness/status and frame, and feeling out where the boundary is. If she finds that there is no boundary, she will go further down. If there’s still no boundary, she is capable of going farther. You don’t want to lose frame badly enough to find out how low she’s willing to take it, especially once you’re tied to her.

Every shit test is a woman dipping her toes into the abyss, to see how far down you will let her go. Especially once you’re already in a relationship. (Caveat here: remember the difference between shit tests and comfort tests; comfort tests are not to be crushed, especially not in an LTR).

Remember how we say that feminism was one big shit test? A hundred years ago it was the right to vote – now it’s “reduce the number of men by 90%” as some feminists openly desire. Let’s see how much farther they can take it, how much farther down the abyss of this shit test that is feminism they will sink, before society collectively decides to maintain frame.

Having grown up the way that I did, even without a knowledge of TRP, I knew this. I knew instinctively just how grave a failed shit test can be, and what a woman unchecked looks like. As a result, I developed impenetrable frame and unshakeable abundance mentality. The reason is because I knew, instinctively, that no woman is worth it. A woman can drag you down to hell. You cannot let her take the first step in that direction. And if she does, you cannot follow her. You cannot take one step in that direction. You have to be willing to cut her off the very second that she does. This is non-negotiable. And, because of my childhood, this understanding is part of the core of my being. A certain type of childhood is akin to being tied down in a dungeon full of jagged iron torture devices dripping with blood and covered in fluffy pink hearts, force-fed nothing but red pills and human shit by a beautiful woman until you finally wake up to the reality of AWALT.

My frame and abundance mentality meant that the second a girl shit tested, immediately sprang to the forefront of my mind the understanding that she is done for if she takes one more step in the wrong direction – because I know how low women can sink if allowed to. I expressed this very clearly in my behavior. You know what happened? Much fewer shit tests. My girlfriends/plates knew that I’d kick them the curb the second they crossed the line, and as a result, they made a conscious effort not to shit test and to be more pleasant with me. Which made our interactions much nicer – I’ve largely had wonderful relationships with my girlfriends and plates. It’s win-win.

I have never once experienced negative consequences of expressing to a girl that she will be immediately ejected from my life if she fucks with me. I have only experienced positives of this. A lot of new guys have trouble with this: they are afraid that by \"crushing shit tests\" they'll hurt the girls feelings and lose the girl. Fuck her feelings, and fuck losing her - you should be worried about losing your independence, your pride, your dignity. Your soul. These are what you should care about losing. If you lose a girl over having maintained frame instead of submitting to a shit test, I gaurantee you you've done yourself a favor.

If you carry anger towards women, if you carry a sense of injustice at how badly you’ve been fucked in your life, good. Don't get mad about stupid shit and complain or suppress your feelings - instead, use turn your anger into a shield, crafted of frame and forged in abundance mentality. And when a woman shit tests you, remember what an unchecked shit tests's end game is. Remember what is at stake. Remember how badly the endpoint of a woman unchecked – murdering their children and imprisoning men on false rape charges, divorce rape, manipulation, lies. Don’t allow yourself to forget where women can go when they’re allowed to go too far. Remember this, lay down the law, and then enjoy the sweetness of a woman who is now comforted by your iron boundaries and frame.

TL;DR Use your anger to fuel this conviction: if they take one step towards hell, you won’t follow them.