Whenever I see a girl my age in public I literally stare at her like she's a different species. That she is so unobtainable and I'm unworthy of her. I feel inferior and that I am not worthy of any girl I find even slightly attractive. Spending months in quarantine not around girls has made it worse.

I practically never interact with women on a day-to-day basis, and the longer I do this the more I view them this way. I am severely putting women on the pedastal.

I get extremely depressed realizing I'm past the normal age to lose your virginity & start dating and it eats away at me all thd time. I'm tying my self-worth to my non-existant dating/sex life, and I'm too scared to do anything about it, nor would I know how to change my situation. I honestly believe there is a chance I will make it through life alone.

I literally wish I could go back in time 5 years to being 16 so I could have an awkward dating experience in highschool, learn how to talk to girls, make mistakes, learn the right way so that by the time I was an adult I could actually have a normal dating life instead of being an almost 22 year old with the dating mentality of a 15 year old still staring at girls like they are from another planet. An almost 22 year old that is years behind everyone else. I have literally cried about this realizing how alone and pathetic I am, how I wasted my youth, how I am unloveable. I'm too boring for girls to like me. I don't really have a social life. The only girls that will like me are the ones who need to "settle" for a husband.