I'm not posting this to cry here or look for comfort.

But i genuenly forgot how is it to br happy.

In the last 4 years i was in a terrible place mentally.

4 years of psychotic episodes.

After heavy self improvements,things are starting to fall in place,i got a job,i built an impressive physique,i got girl i'm sexting with and with which i will probably loose my virginity to next week. I am collecting money to go in a foreign country to work and escape my shithole country,i'm coming off my psych meds,i am no longer an addict to porn,my face cleared up from heavy acne.

And after 4 years of agony it's like i forgot to be happy it's almost like i'm afraid to be happy,i'm anxious about it i almost fear that everything will slip from me.

Any of you brahs experienced this?