I had a very dysfunctional relationship with a BPD girl for about 4 years and we've been separate for 1 - I dumped her believe it or not. I was miserable so much of the time but couldn't get away. We broke up and got back together probably more than 10 times.

I've slept with 9 girls since her and dated plenty but never felt a spark anywhere close to what we had. Of course, the lows were correspondingly low but everything since has been so boring by comparison and I just don't feel for anyone anymore. She was the only person who made me feel that intense passion and I haven't been able to find it since - believe me I've tried. Now I just don't even give a shit about women or dating - it's like the capacity is gone but I don't know what to make of it.

I've read that BPD relationships tend to be VERY intense and harder than normal to recover from. I've been trying to get over her and it's infuriating to me that I can't. Is there anyone with experience in this that may have some wisdom to impart?