So I've been assaulted pretty hard in the past. It was a severe trauma for me. This left me very psychologically weak, and I could barely speak. I needed time to recover.

So I started an education. Well to keep it short, a bunch of women abused me because of the weaknesses. I grew stronger and stronger, until I basically got on top of the dominance hierarchy

But today I still feel a lot of resenemnt. I was almost on the brink of suicide thanks to these women. I never wanted anything to do with them, and have always been respectful because I couldn't defend myself.

Now I'm asking for advice. I literally feel seething anger towards them. I want revenge even though it's stupid. But they basically get to live their life in joy knowing how they abused me. So what's up?