I am 23 as of last month, and I've slept with 4 women in my life. 3 of these were thrown at me, one of them was younger and I had enough SMV in relation to pull it while being a creepy beta. Now I live in a different part of the country where that shit doesn't seem to fly, and I've decided to change my ways. I realize that some drastic changes are to be made in how I handle myself, as I should definitely be able to do a lot better than I currently am doing.

My goal is to sleep with 50 women (or 46 more) by the time I'm 25. I realize that this will take dedication to myself, to self improvement, to meditation, everything. It will also take a mindset change - my heart isn't in the goal yet, even though my mind knows that a goal is what I need to really pull me out of beta monk love philosopher mode.

Some history. I am a reasonably attractive guy, got a bit of a belly but I have enough muscle mass and height to make me a quick lay viability for 7-9s. I am very witty and talented in different things, almost everyone who knows me to a certain extent agrees that I am too smart for my own good. I'm the kind of guy that will dissect the social phenomena and clichés occurring during an actual game to try to endear myself. But the whole charming genius thing doesn't work for guys at my SMV, I feel the beta hamster turning whenever I go into it which I know is the main problem.

I am so far from having the constitution of calling a girl a bitch, and continuing game. A little more history that pertains to what I am going to ask next: I am a drug addict 8 months into recovery, living sober. Any game I give will have to exclude me smoking weed or drinking (being in a bar is fine.. but being around weed and sex together would probably be dangerous. Tips for expressing this appreciated.)

I have a request to make. In my program we have something known as 'sponsors', someone who helps to guide us through our transformation. This is very valuable for me, as like I said I am an overthinker. I can read through the sidebar and think that I am already accomplishing everything in terms of mentality, and still have no results. I would very much appreciate someone, or a few people, that I could keep in contact with. I will follow every single suggestion to the letter. If I disagree I won't lie and hamster and not do it, I will ask you why and still do it if it ends up coming up as "Just do it."

My goal is to become a man who stands for reality, who does what he does when he gets horny because he can. I need help with this. I would also like to talk to someone about any potential prospects, how to respond to certain situations and messages, and things like that. I know for a fact that I can make this quota if I have an experienced RPer coaching me.

I have come to a lot of these same conclusions and observations on my own. I've just been sad about it until now, looking for unicorns and resenting regular horses. I need someone to teach me how to make a saddle that will fit me. Sorry if this is demanding, not shit testing in any way - I just suspect that there are many on this forum that would enjoy helping someone escape beta paralysis. I offer a payment of 50,000 madProps for any such individual who is willing to let me pick their brain over this time.

I also think there's something to be said for consistency, IE hearing one person's advice that has worked for them as opposed to several conflicting opinions that - while they may work - wouldn't really fit into the same game.