I know how this is gonna sound. Tear me to shreds.

Background:

LTR of 6 months just dumped me. No fights during the relationship. She Claimed the breakup was due to stress from school and uncertainty.

I am 6’2” with visible abs at 180 lbs. I’ve always been told I have an attractive face. I had no problem getting pussy in college and fucked a few HB 9’s (SEC Athletes, too). I have a good beard, good hair cut, solid wardrobe, and decent game. I come from money and am in medical school in the US. I have lots of friends. My hobbies include rock climbing, traveling, volunteering as a tutor at the local middle school, and working out. I am a published author in my field and was highly academically recognized in my undergraduate career. Not sure what you would say my SMV is, but I would say at least a 7 if not an 8. My n count is 17 and most were very attractive. I am white btw and so is she.

She is an HB 5. Healthy and decent figure but very average face and body. Very nice girl and I took her virginity. I would say that she and I are very compatible across the board. She asked me a few times why I didn’t date someone hotter than her. This sounds humble Bragy, but it’s all true. I have no reason to make shit up.

The breakup fucked me up. I hate to admit this, but I simped for this girl hard. I told myself that NAWALT because of her. I began to distance myself from red pill. I didn’t beg for her back, but I did agree with her that we need to just take a break for a while and see what comes of it. She told me not to hold out hope, but that she could do a break with me. She said maybe it could work but she’s uncertain bc she thinks I will not forgive her for this.

Is this girl just so focused on her own career that she would pass me up? Does she not understand what she is getting out of this? On top of that (and to me, most importantly), we both care about each other a lot.

Question:

What is TRP advice on this situation? I have a feeling it is to hard next this girl, but that just doesn’t feel right to me. I am afraid that I have let myself simp so hard that I reverted to blue pill shit.