My buddy is sitting her talking to girls who are gonna come see him, and videos of threesomes.

Now I consider myself confident. Im not bothered. Im congratulating him because.. hell yeah.

But I dont have shit like that. I wonder if it's age because hes probably 15 years older than I am. I am 20.

I have nudes on my phone. Ive had sex a bunch, but not this level...

I see these things and am feeling.. lower. I cant help it but wonder what he's texting these girls. This one girl just texted him about how well she sucks dick. Never had that much, just hook ups and few relationships a few years before trying.

Im starting to wonder if Im ugly. I think I can be hot. Starting to wonder if I am just ugly or not doing things right. That happens sometimes.

Been depressed, he's got girls ready to come thru. I don't. But Im not a simp at all.

Like.. fuck. I cant help but feel lower right now.