I used to be a strict follower of red pill mentality up until around a year ago. It 100% works and I’ve had much success with it, pulling multiple girls a weekend, sometimes a night if I went out, as for my relationships the girls were wrapped, the power was all on my side, they became subs, threesomes, etc. I’m a very outgoing and confident guy with a good sense of humor.

I won’t sugar coat things, I quit the red pill mentality cause I wanted love I got tired of just kinky sex I started to desire a LTR with a female who was alpha. I wanted someone equal to me not someone who is gonna obey orders and be a little pet.

I turned 30 a week ago and this girl I was talking to online wanted to take me out the day of my birthday. Date lasted 10 hours. It was a great time and she bought me presents even, cute. She grabbed my shirt an deeply kissed me first while I was walking out of the restaurant with her and looking away. Good sign. Awesome convo. We were a lot alike personality wise and really clicked where I haven’t before with others. I feel like this is the alpha girl I wanted to meet.

That night we only took it to 2nd base.

****At the very end of the 10 hr date by her car she mentions she had a pre bought plane ticket to see an old dom fuck buddy that opened up her sub side. He lives across the US. She plans to see him in two weeks and didn’t expect to hit it off so well with me. She tells me “Just tell me not to go and I won’t go!” it’s been awhile but I know a shit test when I see it. I tell her “Oh? Wow, well that’s your choice to make, I’m feeling us though.” Then I change subject. She later that night sends paragraph texts apologizing and saying she wanted to let me know cause she liked me extremely.

Second date. Her mentality has changed and she has clearly talked to her friends or family. She tells me at the start of the date that she is definitely* going on her pre planned get hardcore fucked by the dom trip. Because we aren’t exclusive and encourages me to do the same with others. I say “That’s your choice to make.” Later that date we do everything except sex and its hardcore I’m face fucking her and I make her cum twice with my mouth and fingers.

She texts me that was amazing etc..

She says she doesn’t want to have sex because all I focus on is sex? Lol wtf

Side note: she is a doctor and I’m a guy who lost his security job due to corona lay off. That’s the one thing she has a problem with me about. Judging from her texts and constant kino when she is around I think she is crazy for me but now she’s trying to get me to orbit.

Salvageable or just broken plate? I feel like I got the 1itus and feelings and slipped on this one. I know you guys always give the truth and perhaps I slipped into the beta mindset with this one. I have a strong desire for an equal partner though sorry if TLDR.