Hey guys i just turned 20.

At the age of 18-19 i just became self-aware after a life changing lsd and weed trip. Before this i was just living a fucked up life on auto pilot without thinking about the world or anything.

I “was” a fucked up person and did some really bad things. Fucked up some peoples lifes for my own pleasure and gain. And fucked up my relationship with my parents and now i basically have no contact with any of them.

Last night i put a gun to my head and almost pulled the trigger but stopped last second.

I’m basically rock bottom and the fact that we are on a round planet turning around another round thing in the universe is fucking me up real bad. Lsd trip changed me and made me a better person but also fucked me up real bad.

I’m now basically here, definitely because i’m lonly and looking for some help advice/comfort because i dont know if i’m going to use that gun.