On paper I have a good life. Graduated from one of the top 3 universities in my country. Have a job. Exercise, eat well, look decent. Have several artistic passions and tons of other interests. Traveled extensively. Read self improvement extensively. Meditate regularly.

I still have extreme low self esteem. I'm extremely socially anxious. I assume everyone will just hate me if they get to know me. I assume people will react badly any time I open my mouth to say something. As a result I'm extremely unsuccessful with girls and making friends with guys alike. Never kissed a girl. And people in general act as if I'm invisible most of the time.

(Don't get me wrong, I have courage. I have approached girls, total strangers. I also don't act beta or supplicative or nice to get women and haven't acted this way since the last 5 years.)

I hate this situation. And I'm wondering what's the TRP advice on shit like this?