Hello, I started reading trp a few months ago and have since began to see the true nature of women more and more. I broke up with my first gf of 6 month about a year ago and now I am 18. In this past year I have only banged 2 girls, one of which I had already fucked. I have had many opportunities, all of which I either waited too long to escalate, or did not escalate at all. I think this stems from the fact that my ex had bpd and was on tons of antidepressants and benzos due to being raped as a child. One time we were fucking and I started pounding away and she had a ptsd flashback and started sobbing. At that point I was pre trp so I felt that I had hurt her by being to aggressive, which I think had a deep impact. Before this girl i had fucked at least 10 girls, but since the breakup I cannot seem to escalate either physically or verbally. I find it hard to talk about sex with girls. Being raised by a feminist single mother doesn't help either, who raised me to be a perfect beta bux. In conclusion I just want advice on how to confidently escalate with girls and embrace my sexuality to the fullest. Thanks.