My father was a very weak man.He loved the idea of having a son.Since my mom and him was not succesful on having a son they tried so many times.5 children and all of them are girls.One last time they try.Then i show up.Being the youngest and only male sibling i was/am in a environment that estrogen dominated.All of my sisters and my mom was so bitchy towards him.My mom constantly disrespected him.My sisters was literally disgusted in him.I remember this when i was a 5-6 they told all kind of bad things about him.I assume it was my mother’s job to turn my siblings and me on him because even though my dad was a good person they were so mean and sometimes cruel to him.One time i remember one of my siblings taking a knife to her hands and threatening my father.Such a sad occasion.All of the women in my family are the most masculine women i have ever met.I know many surgeons which are women and they are less moody,more nurturing.My family wasn’t this way.They competed with him,put him down and i think they were doing this because they feared him and they were envious of him.He passed away 4 years ago.He was the one of the best man i ever knew and he literally sacrificed himself for his family.Got nothing in return.I met with the red pill because i was googling things like why i hate my mom so much or why i hate women so much and i needed answers.Back then i thought there was nothing wrong but all good with the way women behaved in my family.Now i understand some of my family dynamics.It is very hard and it depresses me.The people that i am closest to are very different than i imagine and the way i am told.There is one benefit of knowing the truth and it is that it sets you free.It doesn’t make it easier but it makes you wiser.And the future is going to be better since one can make more sophisticated decisions.I am dumping my family because i think they are very beyond redemption.They will never respect a man or his boundaries and they will fight tooth to nail in order to sabotage a man and make him lesser.Since my father passed away and the women in my family are very incapable of finding themself a mate they channel all their masculine woman shit tests,all their depressions and all their resentment and all their moodiness towards me.The ultimate goal is to make me a total simp and nice guy thus fulfilling their prophecy of life that all men are essentially weak and they should be manipulated and ruled by women.All their bitterness and all their psychological problems are actually about themself not about the men.I will never give up trying to be my ideal self.As long as there is a single breath in me i will never stop saying no to all manipulations and disrespects was done to my father and now are being done to me.I will never give up. ps:this is not actually a question but i think one should be able to tell his/her story and let him/her and all the other readers benefit from it.