As a warning, I'm not a native english speaker. I'm 19 and from Brazil and currently studying Eletrical Engineering. I've always been introverted and somehow misanthropic, and as my course indicates I prefer staying in my room studying rather than almost everything else. Since I myself recognize as person I've had no relationships with females whatsoever. A year and 4 months ago I decided to change and went to 3 parties to try to change this lack of contact with females but I've failed miserably. By the way one of these parties I was with the friend A that will be mentioned through the post. I got VERY angry because something was MISSING on my life and promised to myself that I would just try again when I had better social skills and a better body. Not long after I discovered Theredpill, I wager a year. But I was still On HS studying as fuck to get to the College and I was at the bottom of the social ladder as a senior so I decided to apply the redpill maximums when I were in college. So here I am, been lifting for 3 months with some visible gains trying to better my social skills ( Trying to ask random shit to people on the street, starting making some friends) reading and internalizing The redpill maxims in my life and Finally I decided that I start again to go to the parties, but this time having more experiences and shit.

Yesterday I attended a pool party with this friend A, and in case some americans guys don't understand, there is no greek life here and the social life is less hierarchy than in the USA. I started being ''positive'' talking to some guys there, btw it was more like a nightclub scene, and got drunk ( Due to not leaving my house as often I have little alcohol resistance) by this time me and friend A decide to separete ourselves so we can meet new people. That was the time I started trying to make out with some girls ( it was 3) that were dancing but I failed pretty BAD. One and a half hour had passed and my friend A has managed to make out with 3~4 girls ( I don't remember well) and i started to get desperate and approach 6 more girls and it was quite embarissing and I left. I couldn't even sleep properly because there were so many things in my head about how pathetic I am that i am not even able to make out with some girl, which is supposed to be something that everyone does, and getting bitter thoughts about girls. I'm feeling impotent as fuck, a year has passed, I changed several aspects of my life, trying fucking hard to better myself AND THE SAME EMBARASSING FUCKING SHIT HAPPENS.

I think some observations must be made:

  • This party has hosted by people of the same faculty ( non-stem course) of my friend A and most people were from this faculty so I was pretty much an outsider [ I tought that in a nightclub-like enviroment that wouldn't matter that much, but I didn't related to ANYONE there]

  • I'm not a autistic overweight dude, I'm considered to be 7/10

  • I Have realized that my sexual life is a MAJOR setback in my life as I'm even struggling to concentrate to study

  • Pm's are welcome