I tried doing nothing. I did nothing like a boss. It was nice at first but after a while I wasn't feeling like living. I remember working hard. I didn't have time to do nothing or chill. Back then I felt like I was more important and I was able to enjoy the movie I get to watch 100 times more. I used to enjoy the breaks I took from work more. I used to feel like a highly functioning thing. Even tough I couldn't chill, relax, enjoy spending as much time as possible on things I want, it was better. So basically I gotta trap myself in some ways to enjoy not being trapped in other ways. Trap yourself so hard that the only open windows of yours would be remarkable. Everything is a tradeoff. Everything has supply demand principle. Everything is valued based on the demand. So basically I should choose some areas I gotta trap myself, I gotta maybe hate, I gotta kill. So that I can enjoy the opening windows other areas. Spend $X, Y time, Z willpower in terms of fitness, diet, grooming. Enjoy the attention and pussy. Spend $X, Y time, Z willpower in terms of learning, disclipline and work. Enjoy the money, toys and freedom it brings. If I don't do anything, then I wouldn't have opening windows. I have no option but the bendover and assfucked to the trade off princliple. Well, alright, I guess. Oh shit this is a victim mentality. I take how life works personally. I think life is fucking bad towards me. But is this bad to take it personally? No. It is just something that will limit my willpower or ability to change my circumstances. Anyway, what the fuck is my question? I have no question. If you have an opposing or similar view, share below.