i have recently noticed something about me, despite trying to remain stoic and unfazed by things, i cannot help but just care about shit.

i noticed im way more emotional. i felt a lot of anger during my life, which i learned to harness, during years i went to the gym and worked out superfueled with negative thoughts. it became a temporal fix, but it didnt solve my problems (although it helped me a lot to build my body)

im sure im super insecure about myself, even tho i just dont show it, i know it. i try hard to not let emotions cloud my judgement but it just happens. women notice that, they are like fucking bloodhounds, they just smell the weakness.

its not just about not trying to show it or not anymore, i know i cannot be an emotional robot, but what do i do? meditate?