Throwaway account here. I found TRP a few years ago when I was just getting over a break up like many others here. I have sinced made strides that would not have been possible had I not found this place. Unfortunately it appears that all that progress is coming to an end.

I've fallen in love.

I didn't think it would be possible but it's happened. Been seeing this girl semi-regularly for some time now. We never really put a label on things but recently I've been feeling myself getting more and more into her. I don't know if its the holiday season or something else but I've finally admitted to myself the truth: I love her, and I'm freaking out about it.

The funny thing is I'm still outwardly behaving the same way: still flirting with all the girls I can, setting up dates and generally being the RP version of myself that I've been for these past couple of years. In fact I've even got a date with another girl I met recently this coming week. But for some reason, I just can't stop myself from wanting this girl.

I'm trying not to show it outwardly: keeping communication to a minimum, acting aloof when I'm around her etc. but I'm afraid I'm going to act a fool in some way some time soon. She's out of town with her family right now and I just sent her a message saying "merry christmas baby". Wtf is wrong with me?