Yo, ngl to you I'm not feeling very cashmoney rn. Maybe I'm going thru another red pill rage phase. Can those momentarily boil up?

What I want to know is after the self-improvement, how to make sure I don't become an entirely shitty person. Like the goal is to get a lil shittier but I kinda feel like I would cheat on women simply because I was mistreated by them in the beginning of my life and I'd just dog them out any moment I feel disrespected when I meet my 30's. It's insecure and abusive and not a goal of mine, just how I feel things are lining up to.