I'm pretty beta. I'm socially anxious and I can often say very little to people apart from small talk. My body language is low energy and timid. Its in these moments I feel incredibly insecure and miserable. On the other hand I can find a stride but it ramps up fast and goes off the tracks at 100 mph. I'll become eccentric and talk about absolute bollocks and move in a hyperactive way. Happiest at this time but it really isn't a good look. Everyone finds it funny but it's a cartoon character. Nobody is really listening but there concentrating more on the me as a person and finding it humorous up until the point it gets old and something else gets there attention. I have no middle ground and if I'd have to say that anything other than looks stops me from getting laid its definitely that.