Sup TRP, guarantee you never heard this one before.

When I was younger, I was surrounded by macho alpha brothers, and my friends were all drug dealing wanna be thugs who caused problems over the slightest scent of weakness.

That being said, I have internal pain (not anger, pain) that I cannot release.

I was sitting here listening to an old album I wrote with my band and one of the songs was about my girl.

I felt tears come out of my eyes and my instinct was to instantly suck it up and just listen with no emotion.

I feel like this isnt healthy, and I just want to give myself the freedom to cry in private. I want to release this pain.

I've done ayahuasca and acid before, seems to be the only way I can get myself to cry.