I’ve read and absorbed trp for the past 3 Years. Only just finished high school. Never implemented lifting because lazy as fuck narcissist. Can game and cold approach but haven’t for the past few months because something inside me is holding me back

I have trouble motivating myself and believing in myself. I catch myself losing frame a lot, being tired and unmotivated, depressed and envious. I get paranoid about people thinking about me to the point I dont do shit in my own house that makes any noise, I’m paranoid neighbours hear my conversations and judge me, I’m young and my neighbours are all old and smoke pot so have super hearing

I want to get my first job but I’m scared people don’t want to hire me because I haven’t had a job, or that I’ll accidentally offend someone or not use all my manners, random moments of shyness and I don’t say thankyou/hi/you too I just smile or nod

Recently started walking like a pencil neck dinosaur armed nerd because I’ve been so sedentary

I want to start the gym but I can’t push myself to sign up, go and learn. I’m scared I’ll fuck up and embarrass myself, somehow