Please someone tell me this is just a phase. im 17 and i can't make it stop.

Im going to the gym and eating healthy but im making gains very slowly; i hate feeling like im worthless.

I have NOTHING in comman with anyone and i have zero friends. Im a virgin never kissed girl.

Just tell me how to make these thoughts stop and go away; i cant take the pain anymore i want to stab myself in the stomach till i dpjnqrfplineponjejbk

Im so angry i cant control myself what do i do??????? Plz just give me some advice? I always sit by myself at lunch ZERO friends. Im drunk and really wanna fucking jump