Very recent subscriber to TRP, I figured it'd be best if I put here what I posted on a comment in a thread in the main sub.

How can I build self-esteem? Women I have pursued or been involved with always choose or leave with a much much uglier man with worse economical outlooks. These same women have always told me how an amazing man I am, and yet. It's like having a gold mine but nobody would buy your gold.

There has been only one woman in over a decade of romantic disappointments who stayed by me, but her religious beliefs got in the way a lot of what we both wanted (and her waiting for marriage wasn't even the main issue, just a very minor one in comparison).

I go to the gym and keep myself in shape, shooting's one of my personal hobbies, I go out to drink with acquaintances every other weekend. I still feel incredibly depowered as a man stemming from what I described in the first paragraph, many times has suicide come to mind but I care about my family to hurt them like that.

I feel incredibly tired emotionally. I look at women now and whenever I meet someone that could be interesting and my type, all I feel is just a biological need to have sex and that's it. I don't get any feelings or desires to pursue something serious anymore, to consider this person as a potential partner to walk alongside with, to learn of life with, to trust my back with and nurture a bond.

And that makes me feel incredibly empty.