Hey guys,

first post here. I've been reading the red pill for a few months now and am feeling somewhat improvement. Its been great as i have been hitting the gym hard and going all out like a rabbid animal. At some point was even running 4 miles as warm up before lifting weights ( I know to do weights first cuz of glycogen ect. was doing it more for fitness and health).

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Anyways, this is going to be a bit cringe. So I had a crush on this girl for a few years even though I have never talked to her just know her from hs and other mutual friends ( i know this is hella illogical but my damn brain won't stop, it sucks knowing that its illogical and that I cant stop it). Though I have always had this damn bad maladaptic daydream where when I move back to my hometown after graduating college in fall (Degree in statistics) we would run into each other like some stupid ass fairytale. Today i saw on pic on her instagram story and she had on a engagement ring, I admit i was mad at myself and went to my room and did like 40 pushups, wanted to go out and run till I dropped to but was with family at the time. How the fuck do I get rid of this damn stupid oneitis especially since I don't even know this girl, like I know im being a bitch and a fucking beta but I just can't control the feeling you know? Guess am just looking for advice on how to focus this disappointment and turn it into raw focus into bettering myself. Am 23 and just want my damn degree and start working full time so bad already.