Hey,

Recently I became fed up with living my life for others, caring too much, etc.

I’ve been trying to condition myself to rejection. I kind of have a checklist that I want to follow,I.e. “get rejected by girls 5 times on the beach.” I was about to do it yesterday but I sat on the sand contemplating for 15 minutes, and i KNEW that I had to do it in the next 5 mins... but they got up and left and I gave up on finding other girls.

It’s always the fear of appearing nervous to other people. I don’t like showing weakness and literally trying to get myself rejected would manifest my weakness: quivering voice, twitchy facial expressions, etc.

How should i come to terms with the fact that it’s necessary to show vulnerability to grow? Issa hard life man I need help so I don’t puss out again