Gentlemen, I have a problem. A me problem.

I’m fucking my life up so bad. I don’t know what to do to stop the spiral.

Here’s as much pre story as you need: I got kicked out of college a semester ago. I got a job, worked for a few months, and recently quit because I worked like 7 days a week. I now have another job (which is pretty good, but it doesn’t really pay the bills) I work at 3 days a week.

So I’m fucking up. I told myself I wouldn’t waste my time when I’d quit my other job, I am. I told myself I wouldn’t smoke when I quit my other job, I have. I told myself I would start lifting again, I haven’t. I told myself I’d start reading books, I haven’t.

I just haven’t done anything. And it’s fucking depressing. I’ve gained even more fucking weight (I’m almost 300 lbs and nearly 30% body fat), and I have nothing to show for it.

Brothers, what do I do? I have no routine, sleep schedule, nothing. And I need to fix it now.