I'm not soft. I handle crises extremely well - I know this and I've had people tell me this. I consider myself pretty red pilled and alpha. When I watch movies by myself, however, I cry like a fucking baby. It doesn't work when I'm with others - not because I keep myself from doing it, it just doesn't happen. And other type of things don't have the same effect - death of relatives, overall sad happenings, breakups, what have you. But if I'm watching a movie alone: goddamn. I can't recall here specific moments because I'd be spoiling all those movies for you, but I fucking bawl. What's the meaning of this? Am I very emotional but unknowingly repress my emotions? Is this normal? I don't know what to make of this situation.