I'm on a mission to get my very first plate/girlfriend. I have had 6 sexual encounters in the past but I had low self-esteem so my standards were pretty low. 2 from Tinder, 1 from a party (I was the situational Alpha and was on speed), 1 from a girl through (whom I got ONEITIS for since she took my virginity at 19), and 2 who were just friends but I went manic and initiated sex with anyway. I should also mention that I am a little confused about my sexuality, I may be bisexual. I have actually denied 2 other sexual encounters (at parties) because I was too oblivious/inexperienced/uncomfortable.

I'm 6'2, 200lbs (90kg), white/tan skin, dark blonde hair. Growing up, girls have always crushed on me and I have noticed IOI's and I have been called handsome, attractive, pretty etc., but I have always been too shy/passive to make anything happen. I'd say I'm around 8-9/10 in facial aesthetics although I look kind of androgynous with a weak jawline and chin. Have acne scarring too. Have been lifting for a few months and have made some gains but most of my lifts are pretty weak, I look somewhat athletic but still skinny-fat.

I have bipolar so managing emotions is very hard for me(I'm on a mood stabilizer and anti-depressants), and I struggle a lot with social anxiety. It's hard for me to connect with other people.

I am aware that my SMV is extremely low. I'm 22 and I have no life experience, no money (I'm still staying with my parents), no close friends, no family bonds. I'm honestly all messed up - had very neglectful parents and no solid role models or mentors in my life. So I withdrew into video games and porn, which just made things worse. I haven't really achieved any thing in my life in the real world, so my self-confidence is really low. I'm just glad I found TRP at this point.

I know what I need to work on to up my SMV . Self-acceptance and patience ...

Getting a car, a solid career/job, lifting more, learning game, socializing more...

I've completed half of a BA in Philosophy (I know... it's useless), but I already have a big loan so I just want to complete it and move on to a graduate programme into Landscape Architecture.

I've quit video games and I want to quit porn.

I don't use social media at all anymore apart from reddit occasionally, and I stopped using Tinder. I want to improve my social skills and meet people IRL. I also want most of my time to be directed on my hobbies (art, reading, writing, guitar) and self-improvement. So really, I don't want much more than a FWB.

Still, I'm just really confused at this point, after over a year of social isolation and attempted abstinence (trying nofap reboot) and taking in red pills. What's the best way forward? Joining university clubs (never joined one) and practicing game on the 18-20 year old girls until I get a girlfriend/FWB? Going to pubs/clubs (never been to one) and just talking to people? Going full MGTOW Monk and focusing 100% on my other goals and not girls? but, I'm really frustrated with being so disconnected and without a healthy sexual outlet.

Any advice appreciated.