”Everyone is not alike. Generally it’s said that women don’t know what they want and it is generally true”.

I, as many of us, think highly of myself. But maybe too much to the point where it hinders me.

I only speak when i know that i have something important to say. I don’t like wasting time and i don’t like to be that social. I know that as social animals i need to be social or else i’ll just get really weird. I spend a lot of time alone because i cannot bother being with people. It is not that i hate anyone or anything like that. I just don’t feel like wasting my time, even when i know that i’ve nothing better to do. It’s not like i am working on the cure for cancer when i am silent or when i don’t spend time with others....

Anyways, i feel like this has effected me to the point of where nothing in women is valuable anymore. I just don’t care anymore, i don’t fear speaking to anyone nor do i care what they think but i used to care for who the person was. But now i feel like it is a complete waste of time if i am not speaking to my family or friends.

I don’t know if this is a good thing or a bad thing. But i am not depressed. Just really dead inside, the more i read about psychology and TRP the more i feel empty but also relieved in an odd way.

Should i try to maybe push myself to become more social? Or should i keep acting like Thomas Shelby...

Thanks for reading.