I have been a frequent reader and practicer in the red pill school of thought. I’m 16 in high school and am having an amazing time gaming girls that don’t really have any life experience, I feel like I’m living my live on recruit difficulty while my friends are playing on veteran. There is only really one problem I have. I don’t know if this is the same for those of you with more experience than I, but I still find myself fighting and repressing my blue pill tendencies constantly.

I want to have a long text conversation with that one cute girl, I want to have that “she’s the one” relationship with a girl, I want to live in the blue pill world. I have stopped doing all of these things months ago, but these thoughts are still nagging at me. What have you done to internalize the pill?