Basically my dad's side of the family is here, most of them are in their 40s and up some late 30s and a lot of young kids below 10 and the closest to my age is a 17 year old. I'm 22.

Since they've been here on Friday, I have just been in my room. Gaming, watching movies etc. I'm just... Not in the mood at all. Everyone's having fun and drinking but that's honestly not my type of fun. I honestly have 0 interest in hanging out with any of them. I'm totally OK all by my lonesome. I don't even feel lonely at all but I guess I'm just asking this for the optics, you know?

I'm not socially anxious, I'm just really not interested in them. If that makes sense. I don't see any of them for most of the regular year. I don't think there's ever been a single one of them who's actually called me. Or given me advice. Some of them actually deliberately skipped out on some important cultural moments in my life. But they do the most for others for matters of less significance.

I'm not as bittwr as I sound, I promise. I'm just over them. If I have 2 things to choose, I'll always choose something else over spending time with them.